alhuang@hcs.harvard.edu
http://www.hcs.harvard.edu/~alhuang

January 6, 1997

  Well, here's another shortfic that came to me as I lay sleepless in 
bed. I'll admit, it's a little odd.... It also appears that this story
is remarkably similar to Stephanie Gonzales's "A Part of Him" fic. My
apologies to her again, if this causes any confusion. I swear on my
honor that I had never seen it before I wrote this....
  The characters of Saotome Ranma and Tendou Akane are the property 
of Takahashi Rumiko-san and whoever translates her wonderful works.

And now, Oddzilla Productions present....

"I Am a Part...." by Andrew Huang

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  Hello. Allow me to introduce myself. I am a part of Saotome Ranma. 
I'm the part who loves Tendou Akane, without reservation.

  Surprised? Don't be. I've always been here. Granted, you don't get 
to see very much of me. Usually, you see the abrasive idiot who insults 
Akane and annoys the hell out of her.

  But you _have_ seen me. You know, every time you hear Ranma shout 
how Akane is _his_ fiancee, and if whoever he's facing touches her 
he'll kill that person. Every time Ranma goes out to rescue Akane from
some kidnapper. Every time he nearly gets himself killed trying to save
Akane.

  Okay, okay, I'll admit, that's not just me. That would be me in 
conjunction with his ego. You know, the strange thing is, it's also 
his ego that pushes me down so much.... It really gets annoying, you 
know. But on occasion, we work together.

  There are times that you see me, and only me. Remember Ryugenzawa? 
I popped up there a lot. When Ranma ran like crazy after hearing Akane 
almost say that she could love Shinnosuke? That was me. When, after it 
was all over, Ranma took Akane's hand in his own? That was me also. 
Outside of Ryugenzawa.... Whenever Ranma eats Akane's cooking, I am 
trying to please her. Whenever Ranma allows Akane to clobber him, I 
am choosing not to fight back. During the martial arts ice-skating 
match, it was I who refused to let Akane go, it was I who swung her 
around so that Ranma's body would take the blow. Then...after that 
battle with Saffron...when Ranma held Akane in his arms, thinking she 
was dead...when he screamed to the skies that he never had the chance 
to tell her that he loved her--you never saw more of me than in that 
one moment. That nearly tore me--and Ranma--to pieces.

  And then, he pushed me down. Again, and again, and again. I really 
hate this. So often, when I want to tell Akane...I just can't. When I 
want to stop Ranma from continuing his fights with Akane--I just can't! 
Even as I speak, Ranma and Akane are fighting. Every insult traded hits 
me like a physical blow, whether it's Ranma saying it or Akane. Either 
way, it hurts. But what can I do!?

  I am only a part of Ran.... No. No, dammit, no!

  It's gone on too long. I can't let this happen anymore.

  I...am Ranma.

  _I_ _am_ _Ranma_!

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  Akane stared at Ranma. There...there were tears in his eyes!

  Just ten seconds ago, maybe not even that long, she and Ranma had 
been arguing (as usual), when suddenly, he staggered and put his 
hands to his head, silent for a few moments. Now, he was looking 
straight at her.... He spoke.

  "Akane...I can't do this anymore. I don't want to fight with you 
anymore...." Akane detected an odd note in his voice, unlike anything 
she had heard from him before. She had no idea what to make of this 
Ranma paused, breathing deeply, then continued.

  "I...it hurts me when we do this.... Akane. Listen to me, please, 
believe me. I.... I love you. I always have, for so long...." He took 
her hands in his.

  Akane gasped at hearing that. Tears now came to _her_ eyes, ones of 
unimaginable happiness, and something buried deep within her, long 
suppressed, sprang free joyously.

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  Hello. Allow me to introduce myself. Until a few moments ago, I was 
only a part of Tendou Akane....

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  Don't know where this one came from...it just popped into my head. 
Hey, I told you that it frustrates me when Ranma and Akane hide their 
feelings from each other so much. I like to write these. Any comments?


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	Wakko "Andrew" Huang
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